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Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
1.18.06 - 3.23pm	bad move.. oh i so fucked up my journal... i wonder if this can even be read. this is what happens when i try and be technical. i wanted to make my journal look cool you see... downloaded this thing from a site with layouts etc and quite clearly bodged it up somehow. think im gonna have to set one of my more computery friends on the case. had 3 and a half hrs sleep last night, working tonight. might die. if i die, can someone sue metros please? im sure its about time they were sued anyway.
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Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
1.17.06 - 1.57pm	Tired... I am so tired... and I'm pratting around on this journal again! Spoke to someone last night who hadnt written over 6000words due in for tomorrow. I'm glad im not in those shoes. As it happens, all i have to do is 1000 and im avoiding it like the plague because i have a nasty feeling that when i start it, i'll realise why i stopped. because i got confused and didnt have anythign to say, and then i'll freak out. Im so looking forward to handing these in tomorrow. kind of freedom. i still have one for the week after but at least its just one. i dont think i cn look at a clockwork orange anymore this week. its killing me. im talking about essays again arent i? oooof. nearly had a heart attack then. word wasnt recognsing my usb memory stick thingy. that would not have been good. Back to work tomorrow. not looking forward to it. Could do with the money but not the bitching and backstabbing that accompanies it. Im almost certain ive forgotten how to cash up as well and i'll get an ear full. well, if they give me shit i'll walk. Oooh, actually put hoter water on our gas card today... has been too long having cold showers! Steph is back tomorrow and then my life will actually be kinda normal again in Cardiff. Has been really weird having no-one there. Im tired. And i came to the library so i wouldnt piss about on msn, so really, i shouldnt piss about here either. why am i such a dosser? bring on may........ Current Mood: exhausted
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1.17.06 - 3.59am	hmmm, someone just pointed out that all i ever talk about in my journal is my essays. that is very true. what will i write about when ive graduated? ooooh maybe i can post from kenya. dumdumdum... 4am...
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Sunday, January 15th, 2006
1.15.06 - 5.16pm	hungover.... Feel like poop today... very ill!! had an awesome night last night though. liz had a poker party for her bf's birthday and was really cool. they had a poker table but i didnt play because i dont know how to. drank loads of wine and had too much of a massive bong going around. think it was that which knocked me out, lol. im not sure how i intended to get home because she lives in splott. beth left early as she was tired and so i think i thought i would get a cab. anyway, woke up this morning on the sofa with a blanket. figured id crashed there and been chucked some warmth. turns out i actually passed out on the floor in the living room right by the door, meaning no-one could get in or out so after they couldnt wake me up, i got moved to the sofa where i woke up, lol! felt like death this morning. was so hungover i actually didnt want toast, lol. thats pretty amazing for me. anyway, now i should return to my degree before it falls apart in front of my eyes. its so very unappealing though....
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Tuesday, January 10th, 2006
1.10.06 - 1.58pm	allergy??? went to outpatients this morning at 4.30 at royal infermary. is really nasty so i dont know why im bringing it up... still, i had a massive allergic reaction to something (still dont know what) and rang nhs direct. they told me to go see a doc asap. was quitescary really. it had taken over my whole body, even where i hadnt scratched it, my hand had swollen up to twice its normal size andi was constantly shivering. the nurse on the phone then fraked me out further with an implication that tss could be a possibility. my housemate very nicely took me down there and the doc was so blase im not really sure if i trust him. he just said 'yeah its an allergic reaction, i dont know what to, but thats what it is'. great. thanks. like we didnt already know that. he gave me an injection which nearly made me sick and then pretty much chucked us out. he was so shit. i know he prob didnt want to be there but i wasnt being melodramatic, id been told to go by a nurse. anyway, the swelling has gone down today but its still there. i cant bend my hands properly. im hoping with the tablets he gave me it will go away quite soon. i still dont know what i was allergic to though, so it couldnt happen again. damn body.
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Monday, January 9th, 2006
1.9.06 - 3.17pm	*shrug* essays not coming together well... went to see my wonderful lecturer this morning who normally rewrites everything for me, thus enabling me to do well in essays that would be otherwise pure poop and although he did do this.. i dunno, im ot sure i agree with the points he's making. he's changed what i was saying and i dont know whether to write it as he's the marker or to write what i wanted to write. also, i can't read his writing and the whole thing is now kind of making me want to cry. why do lecturers all have such eternally shit handwriting? is it in the job description?? 'must have at least MA in specified subject and have really shit handwriting'. I think im extra sensitive today anyway because i slept so badly last night. Is so fucking cold in my house. you think im exaggerating but im not. I stepped outside this morning and its pretty much the same temperature as inside. I slept in my clothes last night and still woke up cold all through the night. on a side note, arent itchy palms a sign of something? my hands and soles of my feet are really itchy today and i feel like a bit of a freak scratching my palms... i mean, who gets itchy palms?! Im not planning on going out for quite a while yet... im desperately trying to avoid the biannual all-nighter before deadline date this semester. Proplus makes me ill... (although i hve bought a box of 96, just incase..) anyway, back to my moral dilemma and trying to read handwriting.. tata x Current Mood: groggy Current Music: hum of computers
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Saturday, January 7th, 2006
1.7.06 - 11.58pm	late night skiving well, here i am. managed to get my laptop to actually accept a dial up connection (the day before i come back to internetless cardiff damn it) which is surprising as i'd thought i was just doomed to have eternally shit technological..stuff. seems maybe my luck as changed. oh the irony. no kidding... my comp just froze. i hate technology. im currently avoiding my essay. i have loads to do and im bored of working non-stop but this is kind of what happens when you dont do anyhting all semester and then realise your deadline is 11days away. why dont i learn? ive been doing this for nearly 3yrs now and i nearly have a breakdown each time. had my first official breakdown yesterday. cried for an hour about how i didnt have time and i was going to fail. then cheered up and went food shopping. see, its stupid. no logic. could i possibly express how much im looking forward to finishing my degree now? i dont think so. but i'll try. THIS MUCH!! ok, that didnt work. well, im really looking forward to it. ive had enough of crappy essays and deadlines and education for a very long time. bring on may. of course, will be gutted to leave cardiff and all my friends, this is the one bad thing. also, means i have to face my 'life'. daunting. you know, i should prob go approach that other 800words left of my essay.. why are my entries always so boring??! im boring. *shrug* better to know it than not ;)
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Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
12.13.05 - 5.02pm	waking up at 3pm... oops. Roy died. Had a mental night last night and completely forgot about him, poor soul. Don't think i'll reset him just yet, i'll enjoy not being a parent for a while :) Surprised im not feeling like shit really. went to bed at my mate's house at 6am absolutely fucked and woke up having missed my lecture, i cancelled my driving lesson feeling there were still way too many drugs and far too much alcohol in my system and missed an appointment with my lecturer. dont worry kids, i made a new one and have seen her now. there there, no need to worry. There were what felt like about 50million people i knew out last night. i was essentially with beth but my housemates were out, ALL of the metros staff were there and Mog and his mates were there too. was insane. had a really good night though. cant really eat today and have a bit of a headache but im impressed its nothing worse. go body! ;) Think i should explain to my housemates why i ran in in last nights short skirt, ran up the staris, ran down again in jeans and out the door calling 'explain later!'... the cab was waiting outside with the meter on to take me to uni, from canton where my mate lives. im sure they will have invented some massive scandal that isnt true, haha. Im gonna bust a groove and go write down the ideas my lecturer gave me before i forget them and have a massive stress over the xmas holidays. im goin home on thurs... cant believe this semester is over already, only one left now! scary... Current Mood: indescribable
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Monday, December 12th, 2005
12.12.05 - 4.47pm	pleasant ramble, not of the walking kind... its a bit jammy really.. somehow my housemate gets the internet for free in her room - she must pick it up from someone else's wireless connection on our street - and none of the rest of us do!! so.. im in her room. cunning. ive pretty much done all my christmas shopping now. is all good. just little things im buying for chris here and there. going out tonight.. yay, i bought an alice band with a santa hat on it, its really cute! i know it sounds shit, but it isnt. its good trust me. went out last night and met a couple of nice girls.. is always the random nights that are the best ones. undoubtedly. resulted in much drunkeness and randoms that wouldnt go away but hey, it was fun. ooh, i bought a tamagochi (sp?) the other day, it was 90p!! its excellent. its a sheep and ive named him roy. i was loving him yesterday until, wait for it, i went to sleep and i swear i was woken up about every half an hour all night because he wanted feeding or he'd done a shit or something. i was not happy at all. he's sleeping now so im guessng tonight will be much the same. great. really its my own fault for not changing the clock on it to the time it i now... *shrug* was really funny last night though. i went up to the bar and said to beth 'i just checked on roy. he'd shat himself and needed an injection' in what i thought was a voice only she could hear. wrong. the barman heard me loud and clear and looked entirely disgusted, thinking it was my bf i was talking about! he just wouldnt believe me when i tried to explain and because roy was back at the table, i couldnt prove myself right! it was really really embarrassing. but also very funny. i have a back ache kneeling on this floor so im going to vamoosh. see anyone at factory who is going there tonight. look out for my santa hat!! ;) love you all.. whoever reads that this is. xxxx Current Mood: cheerful
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Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
12.6.05 - 8.46pm	*grumble* hey there, just had a mini fight with chris :( wasnt really a fight i guess... i was stressing out about uni work etc and he pointed out that maybe i should get on with it rather than moan all the time and then go out and get pissed every night. he has a point but it annoyed me because i dont go out every night and i was genuinely getting worried. im working hard now and it just wasnt what i needed. i told him just because id missed quite a few lectures it didnt mean i needed one from him and that was about our phonecall. i just hate this time of year, when you realise you havent done any work and you have to produce essays of a reasonabley high standarsd to get the degree you want. it sucks. im not accustomed to hard work. it doesnt suit me and i do it begrudgingly. on the plus side, my supervisor for my independant research essay is quite cute and really lovely so its not that evil talking to him about work. i should change my picture on this journal, its really lame. i was going to say quite a lot of other things and i seem to have forgotten them all. went out last night. had a good time, got very drunk but in a nice way. my housemate went home with this guy she kind of knows and it was all a scandal this morning because it just isnt her style. she's a 'walk me home and get a kiss' kind of girl. not that there is anything wrong with that. im just saying she isnt a 'one night stander'. anyway, this afternoon, after house viewing of neighbours she said he had texted her suggesting she should go over and 'inspect his tidy room' and then proceeded to say she didnt have time for a fuck buddy. which is just stupid. thats what fuck buddies are there for. for sex without the time you put into a relationship. she got all grumbly and said 'i need someone who can calm me down when im stressed, not just someone who wants sex' and i said 'well you started off on the wrong foot then really didnt you'. hasnt been a great day for relationships for me really!! oh well. tomorrows another day. was thinking the other night about how if you think about how you are and what you do too much, you depress yourself. a lot of things i do, i just dont acknowledge to myself. anyway, i have a stomach ache and im going to go home, fix my relationship with boyfriend and housemate and read my book. its research ;) love xx
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Monday, November 28th, 2005
11.28.05 - 3.45pm	money again :) hey there, everything has been a bit mental recently. spent all my money and i mean ALL my money. luckily, ive been paid now so i have more than the 49p that sat in my sad account for nearly a week. it did involve chris writing a cheque for me for £50 which i feel very guilty about but i'll pay him back. when i can. have still got loads of work to do and its really depressing! went to the cinema last night and saw 'the constant gardener' its about drug testing in kenya. it was a very good film, but very sad. not in a crying way, just in a 'god, this kind of thing actually happens' way. im a bit scared about going to kenya now (im going after i graduate to teach etc), not because i worry for my safety but because i think its going to be a massive culture shock. bigger than i can imagine sitting here on the internet with my little luxuries around me that i dont even think of as luxuries. I think im never going to want to come back. how can i go somewhere like that, stay for 6months or so and then say 'bye guys, im off home to my nice cosy life, hope you get it all sorted and that'. it just isnt fair. ive been thinking a lot recently about how much isnt fair in the world. Ive been worrying for a long time now about what i want to do when i leave uni, job wise and i think ive come to a conclusion. id really like to work for a charity. ive just been looking at the oxfam website and they have some jobs id be really interested in, they just involve experience i dont have. still, in a couple of years maybe.. i should go before im late for the seminar by bitch lecturer always starts early. factory tonight??! love charlie xx Current Mood: contemplative
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Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
11.22.05 - 2.00pm	fucking dentist!! Feeling pretty rough today. have been going out loads, probably a bit too much. have hardly any money left and christmas is looming, dont know where the money from presents is going to appear from and i dont think my family will appreciate the 'i drank your present away, im sorry' excuse. im so pissed off about the dentust. im in so much pain all the time. went about 2wks ago and he sent me to the crappy hygienist. waited ages for an appointment, saw her this morning and after spitting mouthfuls of blood she told me to see the fucking dentist again! isnt this what they paid lots and lots of money for? to make people better? instead, im being passed around like a hot potato and all i want is to not be in pain. i dont think its too much to ask. apparently it is. ok, mini dentist rant over. got my essay titles today. should really do some work before january for a change this year. i should also make my livejournal more interesting... which sounds more appealing... hmmm... think im going out again tonight, not sure my liver can take it but hey, id rather have a short great life than a long shitty one. I should go, was meant to be emailing a lecturer and now im going to be late for a lecture. tata xx
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Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
11.16.05 - 8.23pm	out out out :) hurray, back on live journal... been far too long... going to metros tonight, bit sad going where you work on your night off but meh. was sposed to be staying in and letting my body recover *shrug*
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Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
5.18.05 - 1.01pm	yup, here again. not very much has happened since yesterday so i dont really know why im writing. oh, the postman opened a card i got this morning blatantly to rob me of any money that was in it. how shit is that!?? luckily there was no money in it. bastard. am feeling quite sick. actually, very sick. think its overload of pro plus and complete lack of sleep. it will be so good when these essays are done and handed in and tomorrow i can crash out. people may think ive gone into a coma i'll sleep for so long. should really be doing essay now as i dont fancy an all-nighter at all. ok, will fuck off and get back to 'research'.
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Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
5.17.05 - 5.43pm	why do i spend vital minutes on this thing? im so in the shit with my essays. i have this incapacity to not try really really hard but i always leave everything too late. so now you see, im loathe to write something shit, but its too late to write something good. and i just dont understand bloody virginia bloody woolf. and ive been surviving on so little sleep that its catching up on me and i think i might die soon. just from no sleep. see, why am i here? killing time writing this journal when i could be ploughing through woolf or going home and attempting african american writing...or starting gothic.... this is all in for day after tomorrow by the way. why do i do this? i always think at times like this, if someone hit me with a baseball bat i wouldnt be quite so gutted as i would be any other time of the year. at least i would get an extension. i hope.
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Friday, May 13th, 2005
5.13.05 - 11.43am	sad.. why wont my essay write itself?
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Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
5.11.05 - 8.01pm	sleepy.... In the library again...evil evil essays of doom. grr. although, did visit my best mate in bristol last night because, wait for it, i wanted a dress and H&M didnt have the right size! How good is that?! yes, it may well be revision week but i wanted that damn dress and oh, it looks good. just a little sleepy now as catching up meant talking until 3 this morning and getting up at 8 :( I think my body is beginning to learn it must survive on a max of 6hrs these days. meh. i dont really feel like im getting any closer to the end of this crap essay period. have exam as well. dont we all. blah. should carry on.... see, im boring. *love*
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Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
4.26.05 - 1.33pm	Hmmm.... Been fucking ages since ive written on this thing, always forget to check it these days. Went to factory last night with my mainstream indie fan flatmates. meant we had to stay in the totally lame big room which was being even lamer than usual. ooooh drum and bass.... no. Yeah, it was poo. Oh well. just pretended i was drunk and made the situation not quite as shit. almost. not going to welsh tonight... really have a damn essay to finish that im meant to be doing now . really sleepy..... have a driving lesson at 6.15, i warn everyone to stay off the roads ;) i really hate lectures at the end of term. i go, hoping they will say something enlightening but they never do. i always sit there wanting to cry with boredom. have left the wonderful slug and lettuce now (anyone read the review in paper?! Pah!!). I swear im going to try my hardest and not get a pub job next year... I have a fear i might end up in one though, please, poke me very hard if i do. Im going home for a couple of nights tomorrow, havent seen chris for ages it seems like, prob about 2wks. well, this has been boring hasnt it? my life is pretty average as usual. charlie xxx
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Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
3.15.05 - 11.30am	*happy* oops....been a very long time!! IS MY BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!!!! :):):):) if anyone fancies drinkies give me a text and will inform you of splendid details. loving you, charlie xx
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Wednesday, January 12th, 2005
1.12.05 - 3.19pm	pretty boring general stuff. I really dont write in this journal very often anymore....my internet is still absolutely buggered royally at home so its only uni computers that allow me this small joy.. Have 5 essays to be handed in on tues and an exam on monday...as im sure it is with everyone, its madness every single day. total essay overload. me and my flatmate are just camping in the living room, her with her models all over the floor (architecture) and me with my books and laptop and folders everywhere. i know it sounds like im a mental head but last night was actually quite fun working together, not in a 'yay we're really drunk' fun way but on the very brief occassion that you feel you're getting somewhere with an essay...it was kinda like that. until i got stuck and anyway. then i just went to bed. mmm. bed. i got bk to the 'diff on monday to give myself a week of solid work seeing as basically zero got done over the xmas hols. resolutions for this year are intensely boring: give up eating my fingers, skin and all...and stop spending reckless amounts of money. boring. might be going to New Zealand in the summer!! if....i have enough money. hence the stop spending reckless amounts of money thing. probably not going to be able to muster up the cash. would be nice though... hmmm, think im putting off writing that crime fiction essay that i know nothing about...yes, that would be the one. think i should venture into the actually studious part of the library now and away from the internet. take care, see you all when i re-surface next week, charlie xx
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